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#1 Hangingon

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Posted 01 November 2004 - 05:49 PM

Hmmm,

Seems we all react to depression differently. Thought it might be helpful to some people if we could gat a thread going on what you see to be as your warning signs that another slide is coming on........

Mine?

- Sleep more
- Eat more
- Cry more
- Very irritable
- Want to be left alone

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Posted 01 November 2004 - 06:35 PM

good idea Sheila.. but of course ;)

mine..
depression..
tired all the time, sleep comes easy..staying asleep is tough..waking constantly.
wanting to nap during the daytime
isolation from friends/family
crying a lot, over everything
niggling bad thoughts and convinced folks are better off without me
always putting myself down
always apologizing for everything--even things I didn't do
refusing to do things i normally enjoy

mania--
this stuff can happen slowly for me and only 1 or 2 things--or can be fully engulfed with many of these in a matter of days.
need less sleep
feeling hyper
talking faster
thinking Very clearly that *i'm* always right on Everything.
cleaning house a Lot
less patience with others
feeling more sexual
agitation
anxious
needing to be around people
starting things, yet never getting them finished.
totally believing my Yoda is nutz and i'm cured ::laughing::

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Posted 01 November 2004 - 07:54 PM

:?
Looking (and wanting to look) bloody miserable
Bringing other people down by what I say
Always putting myself down
STs
Sometimes - trying to be funny and cheer other people up
In extremis - sweating a lot
Eating chocolate
Wanting to be alone
Lacking confidence in my work
Unable to make decisions
Drinking more alcohol

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Posted 01 November 2004 - 10:04 PM

I like this idea, too. Sheila, you are brilliant! :wink:

For me,

Being sad all the time,
Little things upsetting me,
Crying a lot,
Not wanting to do anything,
sleeping a lot,
not eating much,
then pigging out,
having panic attacks,
having STs,
wanting to SI,
and
thinking people hate me

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Posted 01 November 2004 - 11:08 PM

Hmmm . . . this is easy to write because the warning signs were happening about a week ago . . . I didn't notice until yesterday . . .

-taking ignorant people's (customers) comments to heart.
-feeling like everyone hates me.
-getting angry and keeping it all in.
-difficulty getting to sleep/waking during the night.
-wanting to be alone.
-being able to write poems.
-thinking about self-harm and (a little further down the line) suicide.
-eat less or more (varies).
-being scared about the future (rather than just not thinking about it).
-incessant crying (eg. yesterday).
-feeling physically cold.

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 02:04 AM


- I shower less (usually starts with not washing my hair and goes from there)

- I crave junk food

- I feel extremely tired

- I stop checking the mail

- Feeding the dogs feels like a huge chore

- I answer calls/emails less frequently

- Paperwork piles up

- I feel close to tears at odd times

- My dog becomes clingy

- My semi-tidy room becomes a godawful mess

- I contemplate isolating myself completely


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Posted 02 November 2004 - 08:44 AM

crying a lot
not wanting to be alone/wanting to be alone (this alternates a lot)
loss of appetite
suicidal thoughts
self harm/thoughts of self harm
unable to sleep at night/waking early in morning
sleeping a lot during the day
no interest in anything
having no hope for the future
focussing on all things negative & having lots of regrets
hating noise (paticularly sudden noise,as I get really jumpy)

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 09:35 AM

Well I wrote a big long list and realised this was just a list for signs of depression, not the slide into it again..so revised the list...

1. tinnitus, this is the first sign, it drives me mad
2. self blaming, everything that goes wrong is my fault....
3. Feeling different to everyone else, detached
4. telling myself and others my life is just great ,
5. become hypomanic, shop a lot, spend a lot try and create a perfect house and be superwomen.
5. panic, severe anxiety attacks, chest pains
6. hiding indoors, wanting to be alone
7. Eat too much, drink too much
8. worry about my health

At the moment...I have noticed 1.4 6. 7.........


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Posted 02 November 2004 - 12:52 PM

Sheila,

My warning signs are very much the same as yours can you ward off a slide into depression if you read the signs early enough? I take extra Prozac which helps a lot.

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 04:00 PM

1. tinnitus, this is the first sign, it drives me mad


Interesting; I have tinnitus but never associated it with my mood... I know it's always there but quite possible it's worse, or it bothers me more, when I'm down.


1. very irritable
2. cry easily
3. don't want to go to work
4. feeling bleak
5. worry a lot more

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 05:23 PM

I disassociate / withdraw from everyone

swings between insomnia (like last night) to sleeping all day (like last week)

i get very lazy / cant be bothered with anything

I lose interest in everything

Taking the dogs out becomes a chore

I become emotionally blank (seems like nothing will make me cry) / sometimes cant stop crying (usually when unmedicated)

I stay all day on boards like BTB just reading stuff...and empathising (sometimes silently)

i feel physically very heavy - especially my arms

I never tidy up or make food

I stop washing / wearing clean clothes (eeeww i know!)

I dont talk to anyone (usually reponds with one word answers)

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 08:13 PM

Hi Tigger

I read an article once that tinnitus can be a first sign of depression, i didnt really connect the two until I read the article. I have have always suffered from it but cope by trying to ignore it most of the time or always have some music on. Before my last episode I would lie awake at night it was so bad.
you have my sympathies

love Jellyxxxx

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Posted 02 November 2004 - 09:10 PM

Wanting to isolate

Difficulty in juggling everyday things that usually are no problem to handle (hope that makes sense)

Self loathing

Being overly sensitive

Crying

Difficulty keeping appts, especially with my therapist




Seems like a lot of us experience the same kinds of things here...

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 12:19 AM

1. having issues sleeping at night, can only sleep 2-3hrs at a time
2. tired all of the time and if i take a nap i'm still exhausted
3. either not wanting/caring to eat or over eating
4. everything is a chore, don't enjoy anything anymore
5. everything seems to be overwhelming- answering the phone/e-mail, paying bills, taking meds, feeding/caring for the dogs, working
6. serious ST
7. SI and wanting to SI
8. running commentary in my head, usually negative
9. wanting to scream or cry to just make it go away
10. not getting out of bed
11. dogs get clingy, even the ones just visiting
12. loose interest in things i actually like or love to do like teaching the 4-H kids or teaching my classes in general
13. stop talking more than 1 word answers, drives my parents crazy
14. act irritated to make people leave me alone
15. isolate, don't leave the house, tell people to go away, don't do anything to interact with people in RL
16. bail on commitments that i can. will cancel lessons or appts though i'm pretty good at still keeping dr/T appts which is odd as i don't ever say much there

oh heavens there are lots more signs, i just can't think of them right now. i'd say right now i'm in middle ground. not seriously depressed, but not feeling great either. just kind of hanging in there with more bad days than good.

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 08:22 AM

Depression
Waking up in the morning gets harder
Crying
Thoughts get negative
Bad memories pop into my head uninvited
Realise I have no friends
Donít want to talk or see anyone (doesnít help the friends thing)
Questioning my own existence
Canít face work
No motivation
Bad tempered

Anxiety
Cantí eat
Thoughts come hard and fast
Canít sleep for more than 2 hours at a time
noise is unbearable (even music)
Panic attacks

I think the severe anxiety often precedes the depression.

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 09:27 AM

I think the very first sign for me is waking up in the morning and immediately a feeling of dread and hopelessness comes over me. I want to turn over and go back to sleep, I want to hide under the covers and never come out. When this happens a few days in a row, I know I am slipping.

Secondly, avoiding any future plans whatsoever, avoiding thinking about money because my thoughts spiral away into a black oblivion, avoidance tactics with bills, telephone calls and other necessities.

Isolating....even here :cry:

Intense irritability and impatience

There are more, of course, but these are the very first signals

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 03:40 PM

Tallulah --

-taking ignorant people's (customers) comments to heart.


Never listen to customers. Remember the first law of retail -- the customer is always wrong.

I hope that that helps. :wink:


Anyway ...

1) Intense fear that everyone is judging everything I do.

2) Inability to concentrate.

3) No interest in reading.

4) Irregular eating (either gorging or going a day or two without eating)

5) Withdrawal

6) Perhaps more specific than (1), the fear that everyone is going to find out what a fraud I am

7) Not wanting to talk to anyone, but being upset that no one wants to talk to me. (Looking at an empty e-mail box, but not sending anything ...)

8 ) The desire to leave where I am, with no particular place to go.

9) Watching just anything that happens to be on TV (generally I only watch a few specific things).

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 08:28 PM

I think I can relate to alot of people's ....

namely:
isolation
Not picking up the phone
Cant' concentrate for beans
very insecure, thinks everyone KNOWS I'm a nut
paranoid
Anxious as hell
Just want the world to end
Little things are a huge chore
House gets digustingly messy (or I am more conscious of it - it's messy now and I'm feeling ok)
Too much noise makes me feel like I should be in a loony bin
My bad Major Depressions - I lose weight. No interest in eating and my sleeping is horrible - typical wakign up early in the morning and throughout the night.
My more mild long-lasting depressions (recent) -- I eat more and sleep more and wanna nap my life away.

I have tinnitus too! (spelling?) Always. Hmmmm .. never even had it checked out. I just take it for what it is now. I only hear it at night when I'm trying to go to sleep, or when it's dead quiet.

At the worst of my depressions my body freaks out and I can literally hear myself blink. I also get a strange numbness sensation in the veins of my arms (usually the right arm) .. I can't explain it. It's when I know I'm truly in trouble. Sounds strange? But it's there.

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Posted 03 November 2004 - 11:48 PM

Here are my signs that the Beast is out to get me:

1) Anxiety attacks
2) fall asleep fast but wake up every 2-3 hours
3) eat less
4) tired all the time
5) severe tension in my body, so I ache all the time
6) major irritability
7) isolate myself
8) very hard to leave my apartment just to check the mail
9) clean obsessively
10) cry a lot
11) sometimes i just go numb
12) major overwhelming feelings that i will never be okay

I could go on, but I'm just depressing myself further by reading this. I'm a damn mess.

Megs

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Posted 06 November 2004 - 11:50 AM

1) Avoidance is always the first sign for me. I can't answer the phone, get the mail, check my email, come here... nothing.

2) Then the inability to control tears. Not necessarily out of control sobbing, but if my feelings get hurt, I can't stop tears from falling. I hate this symptom a lot.

3) Feeling like I am suffocating. It's like being at a high altitude with thin oxygen. Anxiety attack.

Then of course, there is the negative tape playing in my head, ST's, deep hopelessness, feelings of extreme worthlessness, etc. The first three denote the slide is upon me. The others follow quickly.