It is a pleasure to meet you. I am a guy in my late twenties, married, no kids (but with a puppy). I have been depressed for as long as I can remember; I grew up a lonely fat kid with few friends and even fewer social graces. Sometime in my early teens, I started to realize that people thought I was funny. I played that up and quickly found myself surrounded by legions of friends. It was a mask though and I think part of me resented them. I went to college, fell in love and was destroyed by that love. Part of me thinks I am still recovering from that episode. However, I fell in love again and have been married for about three years now. We have our struggles but generally, it is a happy marriage.
So I am actually quite open about my depression. I have seen a few therapists over the years and talking really does help. However, I am at a point in my life where I do not have many people to talk about it with; my wife would rather pretend nothing is wrong. I do not agree with her. I have suicidal thoughts (attempted it once before) and I do not want to put her through that again. A lot of my friends disappeared after that suicide attempt. I still have a handfull but they are globe-trotting trend-setters now and I feel bad dumping my problems on them.
That went on longer that I wanted it to, sorry! I look forward to speaking with any of you and hopefully we can fight this beast together! Thank you for your time.