Since then, we have had the opportunity to get out by ourselves five more times. I have gotten the knot and the stomach issues every single time. Three of those times, it turned into full blown diarrhea. It's not even that I'm thinking about getting sick. I just do. But the knot feels like anxiety and so I know it's somehow in my head.
On Friday, we had tickets to a concert at a night club. I was completely fine and talking and distracted, until we couldn't find a parking spot. Out of nowhere, I had to go to the bathroom. I held on until we were inside and mingle with our friends for a minute before I figured I better take care of things. No diarrhea, everything was solid, but the cramping made it feel like a "problem. Then the place got extremely, easily beyond fire code, crowded and it was really hot. I got lightheaded and couldn't shake it. I left my husband there with our friends and went home, crying all the way. He looked so disappointed when I said I couldn't stay there. I didn't even see the band we went to see, only the opening act.
A few other things about myself- I really don't have much stress in my life these days. My husband and I genuinely like each other. Our kids are great. I am in school and did just come out of a really hard semester. I've never had recurring anxiety like this before. If I've ever had my stomach affected by stress, there was an obvious reason- a breakup, death, job, etc.
I have to fix this. It's going to be a problem for my relationship with my husband if I can't ever go anywhere with him, without our kids. That's the only time it happens. Concerts, lunches, nights away are all being ruined. But I can do any and all of those with my friends or aunts and not have any issue. It's only when it's my husband and I away from our kids. And they're always well taken care of, so it's not that either.
I made an appointment with my Primary Care for this Friday. There has to be some way to calm down a bit when I feel that way, and/or neutralize my stomach. Any tips? It almost feels like it'll just pass, but what do I do in the meantime?
Edited by lass70, 12 June 2011 - 02:51 PM.