Anybody else this bad?
Posted 09 November 2009 - 03:52 AM
About six years ago, I shot up to 250 once, freaked out and lost 10-20 lbs. in a couple of months. I stayed around 240 until about 2 years ago when I shot up to 280, lost a bit and kinda settled in at about 270.
Now, since the beginning of the school year in September, I've gained about 20 lbs. I'm weighing in now at over 290 most days, but in the high 280's for sure.
I work out like fiend though at this point I'm probably just exacerbating my heart attack risk. My lower back is getting sore and that's the one thing I've always managed to avoid problems with.
I've had everything that could be causing it check out OK (meds, thyroid, hormones) and I've tracked my calories and this weight gain is 100% legit.
I can't for the life of me remember the last time I felt hungry. I think it's actually been months. In fact I walk around feeling stuffed to the gills most of the time.
I think I'm just eating myself to death to put an end to this and I'm too gutless to take the issue into my own hands.
Posted 10 November 2009 - 08:05 PM
Are you on any kind of medication that could be making the weight gain worse? Paxil made me put on 30 pounds about 8 yrs ago, took me years to get it off. My doc just recently put me on Symbyax and I put on 19 lbs in a month. I have been cutting back on what I eat but it's just not going anywhere. My weight is one of my biggest depression triggers, so I'm not dealing well with it.
Just one thing to try to remember. You are more than whatever number shows up on the scale. You are a kind person with a great sense of humor who cares about others. Those are great qualities for someone to have. Try not to get too down about the weight. (I am a hypocrite,I know) But you have people that care about you, which is tons more important.
Posted 10 November 2009 - 10:56 PM
All the same is true of you too.
My biggest issue with it at this point, though is physical rather than visual.
I have NOOOO energy and if I could work a second job, it'd be so much easier to deal with my other issues. I know there are fat people with energy, but I'm not one of them.
Also I've been getting flare-ups of gout with increasing frequency.
Posted 11 November 2009 - 05:06 PM
Our focus is on getting you healthy. I don't think anyone with energy, overweight or not, deals with depression. Depression sucks all of the life right out of you. At least that is how it makes me feel. The couch is a lot more inviting than any kind of activity.
You've heard this all before I'm sure, but losing weight involves eating less calories than you burn. No way around it. Are you an emotional eater? Eat when you are sad, mad, glad, etc..? Maybe try to stay busy doing other things to keep your mind off food. I like to read and that helps me if I immerse myself in a book. It's my escape from real life. I also try to keep certain things out of my house. If I have cookies or almost any kind of bread, it's going to get devoured. I'll really eat anything that is easy, so I try to keep things that actually have to be cooked. I usually decide that I am too lazy to actually go to that much trouble for a snack.
I wish I had more advice for you. I'm sending you hugs and good thoughts.
Posted 11 November 2009 - 10:28 PM
Yes...yes I do.
I love your idea of not having anything you don't have to cook. I guess, as always seems the case with me, I need to get the hell out of my house before I can get any better. My wife insists on buying cookies, snack cakes and all that crap.
She never eats any of it, but says it's for the kids. They do eat some of it but I disagree entirely that they need to have it around. Just another part of my life I've ceded control over.
Posted 12 November 2009 - 09:03 PM
I wish you could get out. No one should have to be so unhappy with their situation. I can't help but think that maybe if you start with one thing, one aspect of your life, like losing weight, it will give you the confidence to change other things you are unhappy with. It could be a starting goal.
Hugs, as always!
Posted 15 November 2009 - 02:47 AM