I am always very anxious when I am around people, especially when it's a lot of people. I was telling my therapist about it and she said it sounds like social phobia. This social phobia or anxiety whatever it is, is something I never really noticed or maybe could really figure out where the feelings were actually coming from before. When I am somewhere with a lot of people I always feel like they are judging me or bad mouthing me. I feel like I have to be perfect or something. I find myself thinking that people think I am stupid or weird or that I am not good enough in some way, like I have to measure up to some ideal people have. I feel very self conscious and anxious around people and I am always worried that I might embarrass myself, my friends, or my family. It's very difficult to enjoy like my cousin's basketball games or parties, and it is very hard to be at work. At work I feel like my customers think I am stupid, that I am ringing them up too slow, that I am goofy, weird, etc. I always feel like my customers, coworkers, and supervisors are constantly judging my every move and that I don't measure up, that I am doing a bad job, and that I am not good enough. I haven't ever had a panic attack at work, or really in any public place but I have been very, very anxious and have come close to panicking a time or two. I have a hard time even at family get togethers for holidays, birthdays, etc. I never really knew why I felt the things I was feeling in these types of situations, I had other issues and stresses that overshadowed the social anxiety feelings. Between being depressed, having irritable bowel syndrome, and generally being stressed at work and having bad relationships and old issues with some family members, the fact that I was feeling this anxiety in these situations was not obvious to me. I think I also kind of tried to suppress those anxiety feelings so that I could appear to be OK, so I could get through these situations without succumbing to a panic attack. I have always felt different from other people because of the abusive childhood I had and because of the problems I had that were eventually diagnosed as ADHD. I have so many different issues going on that this social phobia thing kind of got buried under them. Now it is making it very difficult for me to be at work and I have a hard time going places where I am going to be with a lot of people. I can't really enjoy myself when I am in social situations, when I am around people I just want to run and hide, I can't stand it. I feel very scared and extremely uncomfortable when I am in social situations, like at a family dinner, at work, at a basketball game, etc. It's not as bad at school or at concerts (like when I went to see the Backstreet Boys) but it is still there and it still makes it difficult to enjoy myself. I don't know what to do, I am feeling like I am at the end of my rope. My anxiety level is the highest it's been in my life and this social anxiety thing is just one way I am struggling with anxiety right now. Please help!!!