My mood already feels loads better, I've been talking to my friends and looking forward to things, and being focussed and actually doing my work, which is good. Like I said in the Recovery and Wellness folder, I'm not sure how much of it's the meds (they don't usually work after only a couple of days, do they?) and how much is just me being in a better mood anyway.
But whenever I've been faced with a situation with people I don't know very well, I've completely frozen. I walked all the way to my seminar yesterday, all the way to the door, and then just couldn't bring myself to go in, I was too scared. And earlier, I was standing outside the lecture theatre, and it took all of my energy to keep myself there, waiting for the lecture, my heart was beating so fast and I just wanted to run away, I hated the thought of being in the room with all those people. It's weird because I've been really confident around people I know, wanting to be the centre of attention, but I'm really scared of being in a room with people I don't know.
I think I've always had a bit of anxiety, but it's never stopped me from doing things, it's always been the depression that's kept me from functioning. But maybe as the depression's got a bit better and I've had the energy and motivation to leave my room, I've been placed in more situations that make me anxious? But I thought that maybe it might be a side effect of the meds - does anybody know if either of the medications I'm taking cause increased anxiety?
Edited by Laura, 16 January 2008 - 01:05 PM.