I have written about stress at work. Today hit an all time high for that. I was reamed up and down and spit out as incompetent by a consultant/supervisor whom I have been tasked to work with. Up until today I had chalked her put downs as part of a quirky personality and tried to be very professional in accepting all criticisms as constructive (even when they didn't sound that way).
Now I'm truly convinced she is a bitch (and I'm not usually one to bring in words like that, but in this case I'm not going to hold back with you folks) and has gotten me so shook up that I naturally perform less than standard because I am nervous about every word that comes out of my mouth. She has also thrust me into situations where I know I am acting in ways that are contradictory to the way my ultimate boss thinks, but even the boss who has hired me backs down from her own positions when my consultant friend spins the various takes on any given situation or maybe she thinks that she wants me to just follow my immediate directives.
The organization is spending a lot of money sending me to special trainings across the country and I feel very obliged to do my best but it's getting into the ridiculous and I'm trying as hard as I'm willing to try. If it goes beyond and I am supposed to spend every waking hour of my general time and weekend working out all the details then maybe this job is not for me. As it is I always go in early and very frequently stay late.
Not sure how to really take charge of this situation for myself. Any ideas are appreciated.