I carved some terrible words into my stomach a while back. I would carve, cut, and in some extreme cases, burn myself. I thought I had the whole 'hurting yourself' thing under control, and would just let the scars heal up. Just recently, I had a pretty bad relapse. I took the sharpest blade in the house, and retraced the word 'FATTY' that was just beginning to disappear across my stomach. I was so enraged, I revisited all of my former techniques that I never thought I'd use ever again. I would cut, then rub dirt or salt into the wound and then bind it all up so it would be painfull for a long time. I carved things into my skin as a living note to myself. I would see it every day, in big letters, and know that I had to work on what was there, in this case, my weight. Now, going off to college where I'll have a roommate to change in front of, I feel ashamed that I lapsed, and feel so nervous that the scar won't heal in time. What if someone notices? How do I respond to 'why do you have a ton of scars all over?' I don't seem to know how to overcome this dilemma. I'm scared someone will find out, and broadcast my problem across campus. What should I do???
Edited by Apple Blossom, 10 June 2010 - 06:34 PM.