Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:10 PM
*bump*...thats the sound of Amber's fat,useless butt hitting the ground where she just crashed full speed.
its just too hard.
Head is pounding...only one 'painkiller' for that.
Feeling alone...and useless...and guilty....and yuk.
am no good.
I want to stamp my feet and have a full blown 'paddy' and strop and shout "its not fair".
I want to cry.
I want to not be me anymore cus its not nice...im not nice....i try to help and hurt people...i get let down and more importantly i let myself down by being so stupid...i stupidly think my opinion matters but when i state it it causes more trouble...
I need to slither back into my corner and 'zip' and just not be.
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:23 PM
Your opinion matters to me my dear. I always look forward to hearing from you. You help light up my day. You are always kind to me and I think you are very special. I hate to see you in so much pain.
You are not stupid, fat or useless. You are my friend. Vent it all out, scream and shout. We will listen. Please do it safely.
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:28 PM
Sorry have nothing useful to say, just wanted you to know that I know what you're talking about. The not wanting to be in your own skin rang very true.
Best of luck and hope things pick up
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:41 PM
I am so sorry you are feeling so low. If you want I will sit with you and hand you tissues.
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:45 PM
stamps feet....pouts bottom lip....
"ITS NOT FAIR!!!"
skin is crawling.
bye...moving downwards to where I belong.
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:46 PM
You keep screaming dear, I'll keep holding you.
Posted 18 July 2003 - 04:59 PM
oh sweetheart, i'm so sorry you're down... wish my arms were long enough to reach over the irish sea and hug you...
You always brighten up the posting boards and you're totally brill to have around. please lean on us as much as you need to. You're so important, you're so special and I love talking with you.
HHUUUUGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSS (big fat tight ones too..)
Posted 18 July 2003 - 05:31 PM
Posted 18 July 2003 - 06:16 PM
Nooooooooo, all lies my friend, all lies. You are kind, caring, honest and straight forward. I love that about you. Even when down, you somehow maintain that sense of humor I ever so love about you.
Rant, rave and pitch a hissy fit (Hmmm, or a Chrissy fit as I lovingly call them, my sisters nick name is Chrissy)
Always here and always love to hear your opinion.
Posted 19 July 2003 - 10:31 AM
Where is this awful person you talk about? I can't see her, all I see is a very kind, loving, funny, compassionate person.
Sorry I'm late in seeing your post (v. busy, untogether person yesterday), really hoping you're feeling a little better today....*giving the beast a swift kick where it hurts*
with love and hugs from Nell xxxxxxxxx